glory and consequence

"there's a reason i said i'd be happy alone. 

it wasn't cause i thought i'd be happy alone. 

it was because i thought if i loved someone and it fell apart, i might not make it. 

it's easier to be alone. 

because what if you learn you need love? 

and you don't have it? 

what if you like it? and lean on it? 

what if you shape your life around it..  and then..  it falls apart?

can you even survive that kind of pain? 

losing love is like organ damage. it's like dying. 

the only difference is, death ends. 

this? 

it could go on forever."